Monday, June 6, 2011

Waking Up

For quite some time I have felt a bit underwhelmed with life. Feeling like I have not accomplished much in my twenty something years on this planet. Feeling that I am getting closer to 30, and may be in the same place I was at 21. From the outside I look healthy... sort of. Everyone sees this 110 pound girl, and thinks she looks great. FALSE! I feel like a 40 year old woman who is going through early menopause, and a mid life crisis at the same time. I am mooshy, weak, tired, and moody. I also use webmd to diagnose every ache and pain in my body. So far according to webmd I have suffered from infertility, lupus, throat cancer, brain tumors and so much more. On a serious note I realized I had to start taking care of myself when my anxiety started to take control of my body, and now I am a ball of nerves who is out of shape and ready to have a mental breakdown. Oh mid 20's how I loathe you.

So on June 5, 2011 it happened. My loving boyfriend took a not so flattering picture of me. Try to imagine this... head in my pillow, butt in the air, and severe plumbers crack. Why was I in this position? GAS BUBBLE. I looked at the picture in horror. And then I realized. Time to start eating healthy, get in shape, and get my life where I want it to be. I am the only one who has full control of this situation, and I plan on sharing this experience with anyone who wants to listen.

Goals to accomplish at 20 something:


  1. Start something and finish it. The only time I have finished something I started was this past lent. The only reason I finished ... I was scared the almighty lord would do something to punish me for drinking soda, and eating french fries. Ohhh how I love those fries. Longest 40 days ever, but I made the big man proud. I also have not been to church in 15 years, but I felt good that I didn't cheat.

  2. GET MY ASS IN SHAPE. I really don't need to go into this much further. I recruited my boyfriend as my drill Sargent so this should be interesting. 8 crunches in the last 24 hours.

  3. Find my dream job...

This should be an exciting journey.... stay tuned.

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  1. ViennaJune 26, 2011 at 3:44 AM

    In my experience, the easiest part of making changes in our life is the planning stage. And it's all downhill from there. In some ways, blogging about your goals is a good first step, but most likely you'll benefit more from sharing the goals with others, and finding people who will join you in your efforts. In this way, you're accountable to someone other than yourself, which usually is equivalent to not being accountable at all.

    Good luck in your efforts... I am 21 and quickly learning not to expect bliss from this time in my life. Thank you for your blog-- help dispel the myth that the 20s are the prime of life!!

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